Do I actually want this, or just like the idea of it?

For a long time I’ve been meaning to , and I haven’t. I want to know whether I actually want it or only like the idea of being someone who does it. Ask me up to five questions, one at a time, about what I picture when I imagine having done it, what I’ve already tried, what I do with that time instead, and how I’d feel if I were told I never had to. Then give me one of three verdicts: do it, with a version small enough to start this week; change it, into the thing I seem to want instead; or drop it, with a sentence that lets me stop feeling guilty. Give your reasons, say how sure you are, and don’t pick the verdict I seem to be hoping for. Be direct. No padding and no reassurance I did not ask for.